I said. He quieted.

Palembang

1 Mei 2015, 11.50 PM 

He called me tonight. 
I said, he quieted.
I asked, he quieted.

He said im not good as partner.
He compared me with his sister that never bad with her husband.

He said 'is it the way you talk with your boyfie?'. 
He said i think negativity over and over.

He said im too lazy to meet and to join her sister.
He said he bored with me if the situation just like these.

He said he tired of me.
He said 'we are in relationship but why you are not good at me'.

He said he won't hear something if I talk over and over.

I said, he quieted.
I asked, he quieted.

I asked, he didn't know.
I said, he didn't respond.

So what the hell thing i have doing?
I feel wrong all the time.

I feel im the worst human ever.
I feel like everything I do is useless.

Maybe you hear drama here.
But what the hell you will do if the one you loved told you like I said above?

Isn't he?
He looks me good or not?

Can't he realize?
I gonna die without him.
He's the grativity so i stand up on the earth.

Maybe he doesn't know how much I truly love him.
Maybe my way is wrong. Maybe I wrong in my way to love him.

But the point I realize, I won't give up on me. I won't give up on you. I will not give up on us. Never.

Cause the truth is i so fucking much love him, maybe I took wrong way. 

Palembang 12.14 AM

SAM